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Been 20 days since my last post. I spent the requisite time mourning my life and feeling sorry for myself, now I'm just making plans to change my life.

My job is crap. I hate being a phone monkey, I hate talking for 8 to 12 hours a day and never actually *saying* anything, and I hate the fact that they expect me to work mandatory overtime but keep taking off the time on the schedule. I could moan and babble about it, especially since I just deleted a ten-minute rant about the whole overtime thing, but it's not worth it. I am not that job. I will not be there forever. Who I am is more than what I do in order to eat & have a place to live.

Sometimes, I have to remind myself of simple facts like that. It's just a job and it's not the only one I will ever have. I have a dream that is achievable. If I work hard enough, I can get there.

"If you build it, they will come"

I know, I'm threading the needle on the sanity issue, but it's true. No one is forcing me to be where I am, my decisions are my own to make and no one is going to stop me from making the wrong ones. When you realize you are on the wrong path, stop! Look around you, find your own path or blaze your own trail. Sure, it'll hurt, but it's all worth it in the end, right?

I'd rather be a happy failure than a miserable mess of a human being who never tried. I'll take the scars, all the best scars come with their own stories.

On a *completely* unrelated note, I think I'm going to attempt Maureen Johnson's "Blog Every Day April." Basic concept? You blog every day for the month of April. Complicated, right? Anyway, here's to seeing if I have anything of interest to say for 30 days straight of blogging.

Guess I'll talk to you Tomorrow,
Anthony Harris