Friday, January 16, 2009

All I Want to Do Is Eat Your Brains

So, a week into the new job, only 1 week into a 5-week training course, and it's going good so far. It's sort of like corporate summer camp, odd environment really. Can't tell if the people there really enjoy their jobs or they've all just drunk the kool-aid. Either way, seems like a good enough place to spend 40 or 50 hours a week and not go *completely* insane. I mean, I'm close enough to the edge as is, right? *grin*

Tonight, going to see Jonathan Coulton, which is just shiny. Nothing to start your weekend like a couple drinks, some music, and a couple laughs. Should be a good time.

I'm getting back in the swing of things art-wise, so I will post some stuff here in the coming weeks, as originally planned. The whole "getting fired/looking for a job" thing just sapped the creative juices right out of me and it's taken me a bit to get it back.

Doing my best to get over myself and my expectations of where I *should* be as an artist and just try and do my best with where I truly am. It's hard when the lofty goals you set for yourself you are so abysmally falling short of on the page. Though, I guess that's true of all artists.

Anyway, off to grab something to eat and figure out exactly what I'm doing before I take off for the show.

Don't drink the Kool-Aid, nothing good can come from men who want you to drink them.
Anthony Harris

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Getting Fired and Weekend Ramble.

It's 2:30 in the morning and I'm winding down from another unproductive day. It's all cups of warm tea, pajama bottom'd, and listening to little Sia/Zero 7/Broken Social Scene playlist I made. I needed the opportunity to let off a little steam and just have some fun. This weekend provided it in spades.

For those of you not in the know, I was let go from my job of the last 2 years on Friday of last week. Don't you just love that phrase? Let Go. Sounds so tame for what it really is, someone coming around to your desk, swift-kicking you in the mommy-daddy bag, and shoving your ass out the door.

"Good luck, kid. Hope you don't, you know, swallow a knife or something."

I digress...

Long story short, I no longer work for them and was forced out into the soul-crushing, butt-puckering world of employment acquisitions. Nothing more fun then plastering on that shit-eating grin and lying to potential employers.

"Oh, yes. I want to be here in five years! My life ambition is to hold down an entry-level position at your company. My childhood dreams be damned, I want 2 weeks off a year and mediocre medical/dental care!"

I mean, really, what do they want me to say?

"This job is nothing more than a paycheck to me. At most, I hope to only have to work here for a year or two in order to make enough of a name for myself to start making comics full-time."

I did acquire said needed new job and start on Monday. It's nothing that fantastic, but it will keep me in ramen and Crystal Light while I try to get back on my feet. I'm one of those people who believes that things happen for a reason, probably so I don't have to be so accountable for my inaction's, and, looking back on things, will probably be leagues happier with where my life is going right now.

What was I supposed to be talking about? This weekend, right!

Friday, highlight was meeting Christine, a friend from high school, and her clique for drinks at the Rio Downtown. I tend to forget that I seem to have a language all my own, so it's nice when I get to hang out with a group of people who speak Geek fluently. Haven't had a more chill night in recent memory. Didn't do much but drink margueritas, talk about nothing in particular, and head out for cupcakes and Chai Tea. It's just nice to be around people you feel like you "fit" with and don't have to put up any sort of facade.

Today, just spent the day hanging out with my friend, Mike. We went to lunch at Red Robin, where I indulged in a heart attack burger and chocolate shake. From there, it was off to Best Buy to grab Left 4 Dead and play that back at his place.

Really, just an escapist weekend, but, sometimes, you just need to get out of your head for a bit to realise that it's all gonna be okay.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year!

Hey, Everyone!
As a step in the direction of forcing myself to write on something resembling a regular basis, which, you may have guessed is one of my resolutions, I have decided to contaminate the web by committing electrons to passing along my psychosis in the form of this shiny, new blog.

Not being tragically lazy, or deluded enough to believe myself anything close to perfect, I am forced to sit down and reflect upon the past year and start the new one in as self-destructive a manner as I can think of, namely: New Years Resolutions.

Join me, won't you, in naming the things I will regret not having accomplished in 365. *grin*

1) Draw Comics!
I am an aspiring comic book artist. I've let other people, and my own insecurities ( I don't have issues, I have subscriptions), get in the way of me accomplishing this goal for far too long. 2009 is going to be the year I start taking matters into my own hands and just draw some damn books.

2) Stand Up For Myself.
Less a matter of actually being able to confront people, more of me needing to learn to pay attention to what I need and just go after it. Being too much of a nice guy makes one a doormat. Being a doormat for too long makes one cynical and spiteful. I spent a lot of my free time in my life making other people feel good about themselves and letting my life go to shit. That needs to end. I like making people happy, but I think that will be easier to achieve and feel good about if I'm happy myself. Logical, right? Downright obvious and I might be slightly nonfunctional in the brain department? True, true.

3) Write.
No, I don't believe the ramblings of crazy people ( ie: me) will lead to the next great, American novel, but I enjoy writing and it's something I would like to get back to. Yes, I know anyone reading this will notice, at best, a tenuous grasp of grammar, spelling, and punctuation, but I don't care. Whether or not anyone will get the chance to read it, that is a whole 'nother can of worms. You know, other than this blog, of course.

4) Lose Weight. (This one is a prerequisite for even making a New Years list, isn't it?)
Yes, I am on the chubby side of the fence. No, I'm not as doughy as I was before (lost about 40 pounds in the last 3 or 4 months. It's still on my list, though. Weight loss is a continuing goal, so, I guess, I'll just continue to aim for it.

5) Learn To Play Guitar.
I love to learn new things and try to make it a point to concentrate on one new thing a year. I've wanted to play guitar for years and I think this would be a fun one for me to aim for in '09. Plus, then I could annoy people by singing oddly-disturbing songs for them at inopportune times! Bonus!

6) Be More Organized.
I think the organizational skills I've tried to foster over the last year have started to take and I think keeping things in perspective, setting goals, making plans and following through will (duh) really help me to get my life on track.

It may not be the most interesting list, but it's mine. I'll try to be something like entertaining in the future. I hope everyone out there in internet land had a great New Years and achieves all that they set out to in '09.

Hugs then Restraining Orders,
Anthony Harris